Yeah So heres the low down on mah life. && yes - I know that says low down.

Friday night highlights - Game with Rachael. We kicked Central's assesss. Yes I did get to see the one and only Jonathan Massaquoi but from a distance lol. He's got A LOT bigger since we stopped going out. And Mr. JB is engaged so I'm happy for him. I love that kid to death. But anywaysss.. Umm hung out with Pablo, Manny, Ricardo, and yeah two other chicks. Hadda good time .. even though it poured. Found Rachael at the END of the game since the damn hoochie LEFT me. But I still lov-ha. Yeah then went home.

Saturday - sat around the house ALL fucking day doin Jack shit.

Sunday - Went out to eat with Ricky, my brother, Chelsea, and Christy. BADDDD FUCKING NIGHTTT. One of the worst nights of my life. Just leave it as this ---- i wanna kill that bitch Christy. So anywho Ricky brought me home EARLY. and I cried and faught with Jose and finally went to sleep at like 5 something in the morning.

Monday - Drove my dad around all day to some meetings he had to go too. And yeah thats all.

I have NO life.

So yes that is all for now. Leave me some comments plz.

Danielle

So ..

Things are complicated ..

Yeah .. that's my life.

-D-

** I know we dont talk ((anymore)) and there have even been ((times)) I've ((noticed)) we've walked right ((past)) each other without saying a ((word)) There are those ((times)) however when we see each other, make *eye* contact, and I know no matter how ((hard)) we both try to ((hide)) it that you miss me just as much as I miss you. **

Yeah when I read this go figure who I think about. I really miss [ him ] sometimes but Im so tired of missing him it makes me sick. Anyways. Nothing to exciting has happened lol. Whats new? I think Im going to the game Friday with Rachael and I HAVE to hang out with Lyndsey this weekend because I miss her so much. hehe. Anyways. I have alot of tests to study for. So I gotta go. Ill write more layder if I have time.

Danielle Bitchezz = D

Wow so Those are just [ some ] of the many pics of me lately. lol. My hair looks different in every single pic. Anyways. Brookwood beat Parkview 35 - 14. Not surprising. We ARE only the BEST school in the state of Georgia. DUH kidos. lol. Umm yeah nothing to much has happened.

Last night I hung out with Ricky. I had a lot of fun. I miss that kid. Hes like my big brother. Hes taking me to Flordia to visit Macho. <333 Awww so I love him for that. But yeah. I'll def. be spending all of Thanksgiving down there now. Its a def.

I'll update when I have something to write about or if I get bored. Mmm K bye.

 ahhhh I love you!!

Somewhere in the back of my head
theres a little voice that keeps tellin
me yor're gonna come back and that all i
have to do is wait . And i have been
waiting. Day after day im hoping for
you to come back .. but maybe that
little voice is wrong. You're never coming
back. i said i didn't need you, but im
a liar. i need you, i swear i do.

There's something about the word Love that scares me. I've been so caught up in trying to be happy and make everyone else happy, that all it's really done is make me sad and upset. I chased Jose for so long and finally he realized maybe it was worth being with me. Now all it seems liks is I am holding him back from him. I am always questioning our relationship. I love him. Ever since he told me he loved me too .. it's like I started running from him. He makes me happy and he LOVES me .. that's something no one has ever done for me. I just wanna be with him and hold him. It's hard being so far away. But I guess the best things in life don't come easy. One day if it's meant to be .. we'll be together. I'm gunna marry him one day.

One another note - No school on Monday or Tuesday because they are trying to save gas for the hurricaine or something. Not really sure exactly why. But the buses won't be able to get all the kids. Hoepfully it's fun.

Shelly is comming over this weekend. Well today actually. My dad had surgery yesterday on his knee. It's gunna take 3 months until he can start trying to walk again and he has to teach his self all over again.

I finally got a call back for a job. I have a job interview on Tuesday for the kroger off of Five Forks. Thank god. I have to help out paying bills since none of my rents work  now.

Hopefully I am going to Flordia for thanksgiving break to see my baby Jose. I am so excited. He still has to talk to his mom and everything but I hope she says I can. I miss him so much. It sucks.

My great grandpa died last week. My mom went up to the funeral as well as my uncle. They got into a huge fight. I haven't heard from my mom since. I'm so sick of all this drama between my family because all they do is put me and my brother in between it. I worry about her tho. I hope shes okay. Sometimes I blame myself for the way thigns are now.

= (

I've been talking to a bunch of people that I kinda pushed myself away from so I guess it's good. I'm happy things are changning. I hate the past but I miss the people in it.

Yesterday was gay. Fun for the most part but in the end. Straight up boring. Hung out with my brotehr and his friend all day. Then last night we went out with his gf and her aunt and bf and my bro's friend. Ate dinner and then broght me back so i could change. Then we went to amanda's gramdmas house in the counrty lol and had a bon fire. I thought about a lot of shit but it was boring bcuz they left me with my brothers friend who said he liked me. Jose was on my mind all night. When I got home I called him but he never called back. Things are chagning.. only time call tell tho.

Anyways. Im bored right now. Dont really know what else to say. I think im gunna read thorugh all the old posts and delete a bunch of them. So leave me some comments. Love you guys.

<3 Danielle